Ta Dah, i am back to blogging.
which is i dont understand why.
haha, perhaps i just dont want my boyfriend to read other girl's blog but my blog, how selfish am i, but that's just me, no choice :)
back when i had www.staciy.blogspot.com i was earning near to 3k with my nuffnang, and it got hacked damn it. and then i came up with www.staciy-godlike.blogspot.com also kena hacked, these people too free lor. and then i had www.your-bleeding-wrists.blogspot.com together with a sad love story.
And yes, everything bad has end, or at least i hoped.
and yes i created this blog with a story to tell...
i still had my bleeding wrists blog of course just that i took it out of blogger, it is not to reminise but to remind myself of my failures and mistakes. and because i can write i have decided to come back to writing then to rant it on all my social media apps.
i used to blog for people to see, its because i know everyone who knows me and who don't know me reads it and of course my enemies too, thats why i blog with a lil bit of conceitedness and a little bit holding back afraid of how people might look at me.
but as times pass, as i grow older, i dont really care much hw people look at me, i am me, like it or not.
i have so much to say to everybody but each time when i open my mouth nothing came out. so here it is now :
i know alot of people are hoping i will come back to blogging like Qy and a few more so must read lor hor now can kaypoh here already lol, and hopefully bring me some traffic so i can earn more moolahs.
when i had my bleeding wrists blog i wrote a post in search of my perfect boyfriend. i had 36 conditions on how to be my perfect boyfriend, i was so desperate to have someone take over ZC's position in my heart , i fall in and out of relationships faster than you can wash your plate. but because of my desperate search , i neglected that true love can only be felt from the heart. And then i met GW in 2009 and i stupidly desperately fell in love with him. many people i know disapproved of it, telling me how mismatched we were but i turn a deaf ear to all the warnings deceiving myself that he was the "one".
after 2 years of the relationship i had enough of everything. he did not give me anything in the relationship but tears and agony and sorrow that i had to bear myself. On 12-04-2012, i decided that everything has to come to an end. after the broke up i got so lost, landed in a million debts and a lost home and no one to fall back on to except yufeng. i can remember that bloody night when i had all my luggages sitting alone until stacey and jam arrived and yufeng and long quan who came back from KL just for me.
during those years of relationship i had with GW, i lost so many good and steady friends along the way, but luckily i still have my 8 bffs and my bunch of MKs. i lost myself, my motivation, my determination together with my confidence.
my faith for love, my confidence of myself has totally gone down the drain.
after the break up, i had my bestest friends with me but deep in my heart i knew it wasnt enough, it was different from what i wanted. a part of me lost faith in guys and love, but a part of me still believe in love. but i told myself i wont search for it , i will just wait patiently for love and my perfect boyfriend to come around.
and it seems like my perfect boyfriend was around in a corner all these years in disguise as a friend. :)
on 22-05-2012 we decided to publicize our relationship on all the social media apps.
and i am again in a relationship but with Mr Arthur Lim this time round.
Mr bf is younger (right i can imagine QY sitting down reading this and say "cb staciy 吃嫩草 again!!")
HAHAHAHA!
and yes! this is another how we got together post !!! HAHAHA! eh why the font suddenly change by itself? KNN!
even blogger also know i now blogging another story thats why change font. LOL
i really can remember every single detail should i blog it out or not?
NO! i guess not !
HAHAHA!
but alot of people want to know about this story leh.
i will blog about this get together story some other day when i really super free.
here is 4 best shots from may to august 2012 to end the post.
must stay tune to my blog it might be updated daily!
might be only, no promises!
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